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I did not discover the door. The boy did. But in some ways I am still the boy, still looking backwards over my shoulder.

The archival box was delivered to me almost twenty-two years after my mother died, when I had lived more than half my life without her. It was labelled in her square hand with my name.

The manuscript inside was thin, perhaps the size of a novella. It held almost fifty-three pages of faded blue script, one for each of the years she had lived. I began to read, hoping that I would find myself addressed, fearing that I would not. Or more precisely, perhaps, fearing that I would find myself lacking.

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